Aged 14
2000
I was in town with friends and my boyfriend at the time was also in town with his. I think we must have arranged to meet briefly. We were stood in the middle of the street chatting as a group and I felt him going into my backpack. He said he had put a present in there for me and I wasn’t to look until I got home. I remember feeling so happy that he’d done a thoughtful thing. When I got home I discovered it was a vibrator – a horrible plastic thing that looked like something you’d slay a vampire with. He sent me a text saying it was to “break yourself in”. This was the first time we’d broached talking about sex and I remember feeling such mixed emotions. It was horrifying on one hand but the sickest part is I also remember feeling vaguely flattered. I can’t believe my expectations were so low of men and I had such little self worth. I wish I could say I kept the vibrator and sacked the boy off but it didn’t go that way. Eventually I did have sex with him and then he dumped me and bragged to everyone in school about it.